Get in my belly!

OK. I decided to go ahead and start this now. This is our fourth cycle trying to conceive. Unfortunately, it's only the second cycle we have been able to inseminate. The journey so far has been complicated, but not as complicated as it is for a lot of people I suppose. Here are the highlights:

• Cycle 1
  

  
  Ok, we weren't really trying yet this cycle...just charting. The chart looked ok, not great, but then, we were also travelling and I wasn't doing the best job of taking my temps at the same time every day, so I just figured that was the problem.
  

  
  
• Cycle 2
  

  
  Perfect beautiful textbook chart, although long. Big sigh of relief. We ordered our sperm to arrive around CD16 I think (maybe I'll check that later). The sperm sat and sat while we waited for a positive ovulation predictor kit result...and then we ran out of time. The tank is only guaranteed for 7 days, so we had to send the "stuff" back or it would go bad. Next day, positive kit. Rush order a new sample (from a different donor) and inseminate on the next two days. Wait...wait...wait...test...negative...
  wait...test...negative...wait...period.
  

  
  
• Cycle 3
  

  
  Chart looks ok, but not as good as cycle 2, which will henceforth be known as the miracle cycle. Testing...Testing...1,2,3,4,5,6,7,(it's gotta be soon, order the "stuff") 8,9,10,11,12...ok, I guess I'm really not going to ovulate. Right. OK...send back the stuff (or more accurately, scowl at the stuff and say you'll send it back when you send it back, because this batch now has bad mojo after being sent back once already, and you don't want to use it again anyway). Look at the chart and say "Look, it really looks like I ovulated, doesn't it?" Gah!
  

  
  
• Cycle 4
  

  
  Buy fertility monitor so we feel like we're doing something. Have fun peeing on a stick for 8 days (low) 6 more days (high) and less fun for the next 6 days (also high, but never peak) Go to doctor to recheck thyroid (AOK on synthroid) and ask what we should do about the apparent No O cycles. Decide to start clomid.
  

  
  
• Cycle 5
  

  
  Clomid.Clomid.Clomid.Clomid.Clomid (CD5-9) Much excitement. CD14, sonogram. One lonely follicle 26X22mm. This is a really good size, but we're disappointed after having read other people's comments about have 3-6 good follicles, and also because this means no twins unless we get lucky with identicals. Then,
  Radiologist: "Wow, I can't find your left ovary. Oh, there it is. It's REALLY tiny."
  Me & S: "Umm, what does that mean"
  Radiologist: "Probably that it doesn't work"
  Sensitivity much? She was really nice though in all other ways, so I think she probably didn't realize how upsetting that would be to a couple trying to conceive. Even if it doesn't effect anything though, saying "Hey, your reproductive bits don't work" is upsetting. Then, New practitioner (certified nurse midwife) we haven't worked with before comes in, ignores S. Then later does the insemination inexpertly in comparison to our previous inseminatrix. We ask her what the small ovary means in general and for our future attempts should this one not be successful, and she says "She didn't mention it to me" When pressed she basically said "I don't know", but she used a lot of words and said it in a way that made it sound like she thought she was giving a useful informative answer. She also said "It doesn't matter" which is not the way you talk to a woman who is over-amped on estrogen and trying to make a baby, who just found out she only has one functioning ovary. Ok, in tears at the creation of my baby, was not at all what I expected. More to follow after today's insemination, where we hope to be attended by our previous practitioner who we LOVE.